Penny V. Testimony for Disease Anonymous
Happy is he that hath the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God: Psalm 146:5
I would like to pray: Father God, I cannot do this or anything alone, I ask for your help, guidance and favor in sharing my
testimony that you would use it to heal the broken hearted and set the captives free! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen!
With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26
Thank you all for allowing me to share from my heart, my testimony and life experiences. I am still walking out as I continue
to listen & learn from Papa God, His Word and Pastor Henry’s AWEW teaching.
I will be sharing from Gods Word and Pastor Henry’s teaching and how these truths have set me free. Free to live anywhere,
breathe anything and have my being in God & fellowship with God, myself and others. “For God hath not given us the spirit
of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7
Please, consider what I am sharing as some of my understanding, on the consequences of my sin & those of my generations, the
world and mankind. But, I want to clearly communicate my purpose for sharing is not intended to judge anyone. But, part of
the first R’s….recognition. So, that I may learn to separate myself and others from there sins; to love myself
and others as God sees and loves us unconditionally. My hearts desire is to help restore those who are held captive as I
was. For God is no respecter of persons…!
I have been a Christian since around 12 years old and now am 53. I have been blessed as far as I can remember with a feeling
of being loved and protected by God, but did not take it into my heart. I have come to realize I was searching for someone-anyone
to love me unconditionally and accept me for myself. I did not feel really loved or accepted by anyone else. I was lost,
was blind & could not see.
I have been healthy most of my life…was never a sick child or adult except for some bronchitis, ear infections & a tonsillectomy.
I was raised by my father and grandmother (partially). My mom deserted me when I was a baby. My father was not a Christian.
He was an alcoholic and sexually abused me. I believe this to be in the generations even before my father’s father.
I have an older brother and sister who are mentally ill and with whom I have not been able to have fellowship with.
My grandmother, who was not always around, had the biggest influence on me as far as my exposure to a relationship with God.
She took me and my sister and brother to church. I have some of the best memories of growing up in church. My grandmother
loved God and it showed.
In those days there were many family secrets and we were not allowed to talk about them.
I remember one night very late, running over to my grandma’s house when my dad got drunk and was going to abuse me.
She let me stay the night and did not let my dad take me, but she never turned him over to authorities, even after many abuses.
I think this probably created a lot of confusion in me.
Before I got married I remember thinking that in order to get my husband I would need to quit church because he did not approve
of holy-rollers. I was in rebellion and this was my decision and sin and I have since repented. I remember after being married
that my husband would not allow me this freedom. But, I felt God pulling at my heart and I missed His fellowship, and felt
such an emptiness and void; but I was afraid to pursue church with my husband being so opposed.
I have known that God has always been there, even when I tried in ways that were my own. Even in my sins as a Christian, He
knew my heart. He was and is and has always been greater than my heart. “For if our hearts condemn us, God is greater
than our hearts and knoweth all things. 1 John 3:20 (KJV) But, there are still consequences of sin.
I remember when I was around 30 years old, taking a Christian class for sexually abused women. I had blocked the abuse all
those years and it started surfacing when my daughter started to be around the age I was abused. I would wake up afraid my
husband would hurt her. This was not his issue but my fear. I then took these classes and what I realized was that I did
not trust God. I saw him as my earthly father, harsh, condemning and someone who would take his love away from me if I was
not perfect and that He was angry with me. God wanted a relationship with me.
Once I realized this and started to separate my earthly dad from Papa God, I started to have a better relationship with him
but I still had many lessons to learn. To trust God completely is what I am still working on. I even hear Him say to me “Do
you trust me, Penny?” I have been known to say yes, but my actions say no! I am still walking out of this. God cannot
fail nor has He ever failed me! "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding, in all
your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight."
Even when I was fighting for my children and my life he never did leave me and later I discovered it was really me who moved.
Someone said to me along time ago, draw so close to Him that you can hear His heart beat. Clinging to Him!
Even with this new wisdom I still felt like I have had to fight for most everything that was good or right, in my life and
have felt little covering from my earthly father (generational) or husband, most of my life. This is said out of understanding
not judgment, so that my heart can be healed.
When our daughter was born, it was then that I realized that I would not raise her without knowing God and I then put my foot
down with my husband. After this initial resistance, my husband has permitted me to teach them what I believe. They went to
a Christian school, church, homeschooled but not without a battle.
Some of what I have learned and did not understand before, was that God intended for us women to have godly men over us, father
or husband. When we are treasured, nurtured and loved, we blossom. When are crushed, we become broken-hearted and get sick.
Proverbs 17:22 (KJV) A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones.
Even when we have not been treasured by people, God treasures us which His Word says over and over.
Pastor Henry says in “A More Excellent Way”:
“The salvation of the whole family should begin with the salvation of the father and husband of the home. God did not
create woman to be the spiritual leader of the home; He created the man to be that. Ephesians’ 5:22-24 Wives, submit
yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of
the church: and he is the savior of the body. Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their
own husband in everything. “When women are not loved…when the male does not rule the home in love, the female
has no choice but to take the reins. The minute she does, Satan’s entire kingdom comes to help her. She was never designed
to rule the home; she was designed to follow a patriarch, a Godly one.”
This really helped me understand why I had felt like I had been fighting for myself all my life, because I had. But, I have
come to realize over the years that I was in sin in asking an unspiritual man to do spiritual things. God has been (and will
continue to be) my spiritual husband for 30 years now. I believe it is God’s will for my husband to be this but I will
wait upon the Lord. This has been a process for me to trust God to take care of me and help my husband be who He called him
to be from the foundations of the earth, not what I think he should be.
I have been blessed with a wonderful husband and I would not trade him for the world. But, cannot imagine how he has suffered
and endured the trials with me and our children or even in his life. I respect & love him for sticking it out with me and
the kids and continue to ask God to bless him and heal his broken heart from the pain of all the trials he has endured. He
did all he could do, he did his best and that is all we can ask of anyone, including ourselves.
Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. Eph 4:32-- And be ye kind one to another,
tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.
I would like to share the below experiences, as just a few examples of the hand of God and His faithfulness in my life.
1981-Grandmother died-She was the closest to a mother that I had growing up. She loved the Lord and served him.
1985-Father died- I saw Gods love, grace and mercy, through the way He allowed me to say goodbye to my dad and tell him I
1987-After my father died my sister inherited, some money but did not want to be responsible for her daughter so she sent
her to me. They were living out of cars and my sister was mentally ill. I received my niece who was around 10 years old,
but after threats from my sister on stealing my children, my nieces’ safety and futile attempts at protecting her, we
went to the authorities. Who took her and freed her and placed her in a loving home in 1990. She is now happily married and
has 3 children.
1989-A female family member moved in and took over the mother and wife role in the family- I became invisible till one day,
I said enough and stood up and said this was not working.
1989-Mother died. My uncle called me and said she had a massive brain aneurysm and was on life support. Upon arriving, the
doctors were quick to ask me for permission to cease life support. I told them I had not seen her but once in my life and
could not make that decision. I was asked to cease life support for her because of the massive brain aneurysm and because
she was in a coma. My mother abandoned me and my older brother and sister when we were little and gave away my little brother.
I remember going into her room and seeing her on the life support. I went over and whispered in her ear that”I loved
her and forgave her”. I had not seen her but once in my adult life. God gave me her brother, my uncle, to help me and
we decided to see how she was living. What we saw was that she had been severely mentally ill for a very long time, which
was revealed by her living conditions. We could see she was tormented. I asked God to take this decision from me and when
I arrived back at the hospital, she stabilized and went off life support. She was in a hospital for another week and died
quietly in her sleep. God is so very good! I saw Gods hand in this in how He allowed me to forgive my mom and to say goodbye.
1991-Before our daughter got sick I was very active and driven. I was home schooling, assistant director of Home School classes
at our church as well as teaching, field trips, Tae Kwon Doe, Piano lessons, sewing, etc. I came across some of my diary notes
to God, and I mentioned more than once I was angry and noticed I took little time for myself. I was always taking care of
someone or helping. As, I look back I was too busy, driven into perfectionism and performance for the approval of my husband,
family and others. I can see that now.
I am not really clear how we all got sick but will try and place some life events and decisions that sent us in the direction
we went or to the desert. I would also acknowledge the above mentioned events as having an impact on my heart. Both my children
had chronic ear infections and were on antibiotics, a lot. My daughter had asthma and started to have stomach problems. My
son had croup as a baby, also. I was never one for medicine being a nurse and all and would have done anything to not subject
my kids to the drugs, which sent me into the alternative methods. My daughter’s conditions seemed to continue to worsen.
One day one of my Christian friends recommended that she see an environmental MD. The kids were tested and we were told to
avoid all the things that they were allergic to, which included about everything from air, food to environment. They also
started to do some injections to help with the allergies. In the process of this she had an anaphylactic reaction to an exposure
to touching a cat. This was my first experience with this sort of thing. Even as a nurse I had never seen anyone allergic
to animal, food etc…just drugs.
This is how it all started and it was only the beginning…..! So, I altered about as much in their environment, food,
water etc. as I could, to help them feel better; but this did not really work. She got worse. My son was sensitive to smells,
but not really sick through this till he got older.
We continued to have problems with our daughter breathing and allergies. So, we removed furniture and carpet and laid plastic
sheeting down, this was the last and final of many things we did to help her get well in this home. When I look back there
was always some temporary relief, but with each change or submission it required more extreme measures, which created more
5.Thus saith the LORD; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the
6.For he shall be like the heath 2. heath, heath land -- (a tract of level wasteland; uncultivated land with sandy soil and
scrubby vegetation)in the desert, and shall not see when good cometh; but shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness,
in a salt land and not inhabited.
7. Blessed is the man that truseth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is.
8.For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat
cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.
9.The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?
10. I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit
of his doings.
1992-car accident-exhaust leaking into my car. Our doctor was able to determine this was the reason why we were all getting
sicker. Our daughter already couldn’t go to church and then our son started to complain of smells and getting sick at
church, so we had to stop.
June 1993-Ourdaughter was diagnosed with Crohns disease at 14 yrs old and during this year, she had an ovarian cyst that was
drained, rectal fissure surgery, E-Coli exposure in the hospital and was in and out of the hospital because of Crohns lesions
from her mouth to rectum where she could not eat or even drink water without pain or symptoms.
She came home in October with tube feedings and an I.V. I cared for her. I went back to the environmentalist MD because she
was not getting better with the 100 mg steroids and massive doses of antibiotics.
She would ask me why she was so sick, I would say I did not know but that I knew God was faithful. The only teaching I seemed
to understand was the example of Job, a Godly man who suffered for Christ. “I told her that God must have had something
special for her to do to have suffered so much”. I now understand that Job was in fear of losing his children. I have
One morning the Lord spoke to me and told me he would heal her. This was October 30, 1993 and she was healed immediately of
Crohns/abdominal pain and started to eat and drink.
But, even a few days later she was in the E.R. for diarrhea (? Flu). But, the total healing of her Crohns, abdominal pain,
MCS EI did not seem to last. She continued to have symptoms but never went on any antibiotic or steroids for Crohns even to
this day. God is faithful. Through all of this, even though she was diagnosed with Crohns, she never had any of her bowels
removed, which is a miracle considering she had lesions from her mouth to rectum. She continued with severe debilitating abdominal
pain and was diagnosed also with E.I. and Porphyria. (Porphyria is a group of different disorders caused by abnormalities
in the chemical steps leading to the production of heme.)
Because she continued to get worse, we went to the mountains to a hotel in Snoqualmie Falls. She seemed better and this helped
us consider our next move. The scripture God gave me was this. Psalms 46:10. Be still, and know that I am God: I will be
exalted among the heathen; I will be exalted in the earth. 11. The LORD of host is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge.
What this experience did was confirm what I had read in the environmental books, that the mountain, desert or by the water
helps some people. Fear and faith project into the future. They must be fulfilled. One is by God and the other one by Satan.
So we proceeded to buy land in North Bend, Washington by a river.
These are part of the letters that were written from the Environmental MD and my husband to get the permitting process going
9/14/1994 King County Planning-Dear Sirs, Due to the circumstances explained in this letter, this is a request for expedited,
hardship approval process for our home in North Bend. We have a highly allergic and chemical sensitive child and a new home
seems to be the only direction that we can now go. This is to provide the environment she needs to stay healthy and not worsen
her condition. We have come to this conclusion after exhaustive medical costs and consultations, a letter from my daughter’s
doctor is attached, (Dr. name).
We are building this home under the consultation of a specialist in safe home construction. (name).
We have tried to take every consideration possible for a easy approval process: using a local civil engineer, having a boundary
and topography survey done. While setting the building back 200 Ft. To ease concerns for any wetlands encroachment and leaving
the remaining acreage as undisturbed as possible. We have acquired 5 acres only in hopes of eliminating the possibility of
a neighbors use of wood stoves and pesticides etc.., further exacerbating this already difficult health issue. Respectfully,
(my husband) Duvall, WA
This letter came from a large Environmental Medicine Clinic in Washington:
May 12, 1994
To whom it may concern, (our daughter & Son) are patients of mine who have widespread allergies. They both have inhalant
allergies including molds, dust, mites, and pollens. In addition, they have multiple food intolerances. They have to avoid
eating the foods they are sensitive to or the symptoms may be aggravated. In addition, both children, especially (our daughter),
are quite sensitive to environmental chemicals. This would include having adverse reactions to substances such as carpet,
fumes, auto exhaust, strong fragrances, cleaning agents, pesticides and similar compounds. Both the children have had to
lead a restrictive lifestyle due to the nature of their sensitivities and allergies. Our daughter, in particular, has had
a severe bout of what was originally thought to be Crohn’s disease as well as ovarian cysts and alopecia (hair loss).
Her underlying diagnosis includes chronic Mucocutaneous Candidiasis with autoimmune polyendocrinopathy. Toni requires long
term antifungal medication for this condition.
Due to the nature of their allergies and sensitivities, I have recommended strict environmental control at home. This includes
air filters to reduce the level of allergens in the air. He goes on to tell us we need control her environment with water
filters, special bedding, and all allergy control products that he believed would help there allergies. He finally says that
both children will require long-term therapy including desensitization, environmental control and nutritional supplementation.
(Doctors name) M.D.
We had extreme trouble getting a permit and I am not clear but I think we took our daughter to this building site and she
felt sick and this sent us on another wild goose chase. I would say even before this I was exausted and broken-hearted and
was getting sicker by the day myself. I was driven to save my children lives or to give them some sort of life, because my
daughter was still curled up in a ball on her bed with abdominal pain and was affected by her environment.
So in 1994 we moved from 11 years in our Woodinville house. We had done everything we were told to do to make this house Okay
to stay in from ripping the carpet out, testing carpet, air, cleaning up mold etc. Everything!!!!
Then our environmental MD told us that he thought that our kids would be better in high desert and so we started to consider
Psalm 38:6 I am troubled; I am bowed down greatly; I go mourning all the day long.
June 1994-We moved to log house in Duval which again did not work, this house was leaky, and wood smoke would come in. My
husband even put an air purifying system in. This had hardwood floors but still did not work.
In October, I rented a camper and drove by myself with the kids to Arizona high desert around Flagstaff. I will never forget
after my daughter being curled up in a ball getting up and going outside and playing on a swing set with our son. The relief
of symptoms is what drove us in every decision. I was exausted and not well at this time and had become more allergic. In
the mean time…
11-1994 we then moved to Marrowstone Island on the water and continued to get sicker. This house was small and old and we
thought the ocean air would be good, but again there was a mill and we got the stuff from it. Toni and I were both diagnosed
with porhyria by our Environmental MD. The only thing this did was give us a little credibility with the friends and family
that were left. Steven was still working so came home on the weekends. He had an apartment in Bellevue Washington.
I was really sick here and analyphactic (which I had never been before) a good part of the time. I went to a Chiropractic
and chelation doctor, here and ended up in E.R. from an overdose of vitamins he had given me. My daughter and I were on Oxygen
and I.V.’s. We were in the process of deciding to move to Snowflake Arizona and had contact with a group of E.I. that
was welcoming us. At this point we had lost most of friends and family, although I Praise God for the ones that stuck it out
with us to this day! Aside from them everyone else thought we were nuts. At this point we came to the conclusion that Washington
was not for us.
I would say that I had been functioning up until this last place we moved. I had been caring for my children, pretty much
on my own even when I was sick. My husband went to work and I had no relief. When I look back, I see that I had a broken
heart from childhood; otherwise I would not have been in so much fear. I remember my dad telling me he was going to die, which
I think was the open door for fear to come in and the abuse only added to it. Then with no mother, I had only my dad.
But, what happened here was I collapsed and my heart was broken again, from caring for my daughter all those years, I could
not bear to see her suffer. But then it became even more broken when I felt abandoned my husband physically, mentally and
emotionally. He left. He was there on the weekends but I could tell he was gone. I felt unloved, uncovered, isolated, and
alone and abandoned. Abandonment was a big issue for me because of my childhood, but now I was debilitated and could not care
for myself and I felt very isolated, alone and abandoned by the one person I believed loved me. I had always been into performance
and perfectionism but I could not do this anymore. I needed help, to be loved even in my mess, unconditionally. At this point
I fell into total agreement that I was not loved or worth loving.
The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. Psalm 34:18
Then there was God! I remember looking out onto the beach and there were many eagles that flew over and God spoke to me and
He said Isaiah 40:31--But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles;
they shall run and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint”. I told the kids that what God had said. The only
thing that kept me going was knowing the God from my youth, that He was faithful and would never leave me or desert me or
abandon me. Even when my father, mother everyone leaves, He will not, period, because this goes against His character, He
was the only one who never changed in my life. There is nothing-nothing-nothing I could do to make God love me more.
3-95 Steve and I flew to Arizona to check it out. I had oxygen, was sensitive to EMF’s and had a w/c was very sick most
of the time. I was absolute nightmare to travel with. My poor husband. At first we were going to move down to Arizona by
ourselves but then when Stevens’s job closed he came with us. This was an answer to prayer. I could not have done this
alone. He was given stock options and salary for a year, which the other officers never received when the company closed down.
God provided for us abundantly.
Psalm 31:9-13 9. Have mercy upon me, O LORD, Be, gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in trouble; mine eye is consumed with grief,
yea, my soul and my belly. 10. For my life is spent with grief, and my years with sighing; my strength failed because of mine
iniquity, and my bones are consumed.
We arrived July 13th 1995 in Snowflake, Arizona. We were greeted by our neighborhood of E.I.’s who were loving and supportive
of us. After being so isolated and rejected, these people accepted us just the way we were. They were such a comfort and blessing
We built first our large shop and garage and turned it into a temporary home in August. I could not sleep in the special
Airsteam that was E.I. safe supposedly, so we slept in the car and our neighbor’s house until shop was done.
1996 February-Home in Snowflake done. February we moved into the house. My husband and son built this with the neighbors
and some builders. This was a very specially built house with some foil lined rooms, tile, special paints, insulation etc.
My husband built other houses in area but they were all different depending on the person’s allergies or E.I. needs.
I would mention that working and being able to build a home for an EI is very difficult because of the extreme differences
in sensitivities. At one point we were actually taken to court, when one of the persons refused to pay us saying the house
was not liveable, (even though they lived in it). They did not win, but my husband was injured by this. We were committed
to help people in our same situation but did not understand, at the time, what we were really up against.
Most E.I.’s in our community subscribed to a popular magazine, E.I. Home Companion in which there was a testimony from
Darcy Renegal of her healing through Pastor Henry’s teaching. I think this is what spurred my neighbors to invite Pastor
Henry to visit us.
Pastor Henry came to Snowflake Arizona, where my family and I lived in an E.I. home and community. The words that Pastor
Henry spoke to me were, “Who broke your heart?” and “You have been lied to!” (“I say Duped!”)
This truth pierced my heart and this was the beginning of my freedom from fear, stress, anxiety, loneliness, and healing of
my broken heart and my relationship to Papa.
So on March 6th 1997, 9 years ago, (our Wedding Anniversary) God healed me of my broken heart and M.C.S.E.I. (allergies to
food, clothing, environment, anaphylactic reactions, electromagnetic, etc.) completely.
How was I healed? Jeremiah 15:16--Thy words were found, and I did eat them; and thy word was unto me the joy and rejoicing
of mine heart: for I am called by thy name, O LORD God of hosts. Jeremiah 17: 14. Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed;
save me and I shall be saved: for thou art my praise
Isaiah 53: 4 & 5 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God,
and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace
was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
I want to also share that I have been healed of Porphyria, anorexia, bulimia, breast cysts, migraines, sciatica, herpes, high
cholesterol, back & neck pain, hair loss, chronic cough and change of life. Plus, I also believe God’s healing in the
generational diseases that He has prevented me from having in my family tree (diabetes, heart disease, insanity, alcoholism,
addictions, breast cancer & Scleroderma.
I was in a prison cell. God set me free. I remember a particular sticky note that my kid had written on saying “Mom,
this chair will not hurt you”. Just an indication of how far in fear I had gone. What I realized was that my heart had
been broken and in that, the door to fear was opened, from childhood. What I feared came upon me. I was afraid of losing
my children and my life and I did everything I could to save them. I was in sin because fear is sin. Fear leads to deception
but faith leads to risk. As Pastor Henry says “What’s the worst thing that can happen to you, die and go to heaven?”
Boy, does that take the bite out of death. Satan really used this on me, fear of death, man, future…etc. I had been
duped by Satan, who had lied to me all my life, the father of lies.
I had given all my strength to fear. I have a little story I would like to share: Once there was this little boy who was
afraid of this monster in the basement. His mom would often visit the basement and he was always afraid, when she didn’t
come back right away. One day it seemed like an exceptionally long time for her to be gone. So with broom in hand, he headed
for the basement ready to take on the monster, who he was sure had eaten his mom.
When he got down in the basement he saw it: a great big ugly Monster on top of the freezer. He was laughing and sneering
at the little boy. The little boy said, “Where’s my mommy?” The Monster said, “Ha! HA!, I ate her!”
“Oh! No!” said, the little boy. Then he suddenly became angry and started to hit the Monster, with his broom,
saying “you give me back my mommy!
The Monster suddenly, became a little smaller. He hit him again and again until the Monster became very small. The Little
Boy, suddenly said, “Well, you’re not so scary and big anymore! Why? Said the little boy?” And the Monster
replied,” Well, you’re not afraid of me anymore!”
The little boy said,” There’s a boy named Jimmy who’s still afraid of monsters, why don’t you go down
to his house.” And the Monster did! Soon after his mom walked into where he was standing. The little boy said, “Where
have you been, Mom?” “I was just doing the laundry, honey!”
I got angry this time at the right thing…Satan. So, when those symptoms came I realized that it was Satan trying to
trick me to believe that these things could actually harm me.
As I have come to understand when we are not loved properly as our Father intended, (which is bunches!) then Fear (all) comes
in and Fear hath torment. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that
feareth is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18 (KJV) I was certainly tormented. When I look back I tried to save my children’s
and my life and when we do this because of fear of death or sickness, we lose our life and that is just what happened. We
ended up in the desert in sin with Fear. Sorta like Job!
When God healed my heart with His unconditional love, then my body started to respond and I went back to work and started
to take my life back. My children followed! Praise God!
August 15, 1998--5 months later, Pastor Henry, prayed for complete deliverance of fear of man, stress, anxiety, loneliness,
protection, guarding my heart from evil. That other people’s diseases and problems would not touch me.
Most of our neighbors were saying I/we were not really sick. That we were better because of the environmental changes, but
as you can see in my bible notes after we were there for 3 months. On 10-10-1995, I had written “Father, I am struggling
with my daughters, reacting to all foods, allergic reactions don’t know what to do or feed her. I love you, Lord! Have
mercy and help us. Penny”
On October 16 we placed an add to sell our E.I. Home. We sold this house in the middle of the desert for cash. There was
one miracle after another. We left the desert within a year of healing. I believe that in order to do my walk-out we needed
to move on with our lives and take back what Satan had stolen; but that we needed to leave the desert. Some have said to me
that God sent me to the desert like, Moses. I say, no, I do not agree when I said in my heart these things were greater than
God. I bought it into my life. It had every right to my life. James 1:13 God does not tempt us, Satan tempts us in our weaknesses.
I remember getting really angry when my children and I were sick and then realizing it was not God’s fault. That Satan
had tricked me into thinking it was God that had allowed (caused it to happen). This was how I was taught by the churches.
When we say God allowed, we are saying He is capable of sinning or tempting us and He does not do this. Our real enemy is
Satan, he is the accuser of the brethren and accuses us to God day and night and God to us. Satan is the liar and father
of lies. According to Pastor Henry’s teaching, when we are in temptation we are in the wilderness. It was fear that
sent me to the desert and fear is not of God. But, I do believe that God was truly with me and had grace and mercy on us in
the mist of my sin and disobedience. I/We did not look back to the apostasy but looked forward to the land of promise and
the restoration of the years the locust had eaten.
“How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them they are more
in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.”
After our healing our family moved to Montana where we bought a restaurant. This is really where my walk out has been. God
has been faithful to meet me right where I was. I was still in fear when I got here but made one step at a time. As Pastor
Henry says “one step forward, two back is still forward motion.” When they talk about it being walk-out, this
is true. We are walking out of taking back what Satan has stolen from us and for some, it can be everything.
After being here for 2 years our son at 18 was diagnosed with Crohns disease and was placed on strong medicine. I looked again
at AMEW and looked up the roots and saw generational yukkies. But, the one that popped for me was the unloving; I knew this
was on both sides of our family.
In November our son was in ICU with a heart attack at 20 years old. He had been exposed to a Coccyx B virus that had attacked
the lining of his heart.
I wrote an e-mail requesting prayer on 12/7/01
Dear Family & Friends, God is faithful! I would ask you all to be praying for Lil Steven. He has had a MI or heart attack
as a side effect from the drugs he was taking for Crohn’s Disease, we believe. (It was determined, after lab tests were
done that the coccyx B virus had caused this heart attack.) He has been diagnosed with Myocarditis and is in ICU. He was
having chest pain for a couple days and was admitted yesterday. The good news is that these cardiac enzymes started this
morning going down to 20 and they need to be at 0. They were at 67, so this is good. He will be closely monitored until
he gets well. I would covet your prayer for lil Steven and us. May God Bless you in your own lives. Thank you! Love Always!
On 12/01/01 He was healed of an MI Praise God!
So, on March 13-2002 So, for the first time, I decided that I needed to go to Pleasant Valley. My purpose was to learn about
the unloving and deal with it in my generations and take responsibility. We now had two children that had this disease in
the past. My life was changed forever as there were still so many things I did not know or understand. One more layer came
Psalm 34:1-4 I WILL bless the LORD at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make her boast in the LORD: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad.
O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together. I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from
all my fears.
My son also went to PVC during this year, he was still having symptom of Crohn but God met him there.
September 9 2003, The International Heart Institute. Doctor wrote.
To Whom It May Concern: (Our sons name), has been under my care since April of 2003. At that time, he was seen on a two year
follow up for myocarditis. He has completer resolutions of all of his symptoms, both subjective and objective, and he has
an absolutely normal echocardiogram performed on April 10, 2003.
At this time, he has had complete and total recovery from his episode of myocarditis and has no ongoing heart or blood vessel
disease at this time. Respectfully submitted, Doctors name DO, FACOI, FACC, FSCAI
Our Son has a perfect Heart! The doctor gave him this report! You healed him! Praise you God.
On September 6-2005 his Gastroenterologist Doctor said his tests were normal for Crohns.
The Doctors letter on 9/06/05, recording his Coho lab test, was document as being normal. When I asked him what I could say
to you, “He said, I should tell you, he is still walking out.”
Before God sent Pastor Henry to me and my family in the desert, if you would’ve asked me about my relationship to God,
I would’ve told you, “I love the Lord with all my heart soul and mind.” But…I would not have been
able to finish the sentence… I did not love myself; but what I did do was try and love others more than myself. How
could I have loved my neighbor or anyone?
Jeremiah 9:23-24 Thus saith the LORD, Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, neither let the mighty man glory in his might,
let not the rich man glory in his riches; 24 But let him that glorieth glory in this, that he undertandeth and knoweth me,
that I am the LORD which exercise lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth: for in these things I delight,
saith the LORD. I thought I knew God and who He was.
I would like you to know that even though we were supposed to be in a safe place in Arizona and had done everything physical
to make this possible, we continued to have problems there. While living there, I continued searching for the answer through
all types of alternative medicine, chiropractic, vitamin therapy, I.V.’s, oxygen, homeopathy, dentistry, diets, and
on and on. I would guess we have spent over $500,000 or more on these treatments, etc. During this time I had prided myself
in the knowledge of this disease, and alternative methods of treatments, which I have sense repented for. Fortunately, God
saved us from going and doing some of the treatments that are offered at the major Environmental Clinics.
I just went to my bookshelf this morning seeing some of what I used to read. Looking at them with new eyes, I have included
some of the titles to help you understand what I am sharing with you and how I was truly searching and lost. There are over
400 books, but here are only some titles, “Co-dependency No-More”, “Boundaries”, “Keep your
dream alive”, “Beauty for Ashes”, “Laugh Again”, “Victory over darkness”, “
The Bible Cure”, “Beyond Fear”, “The Anger Workbook” “Happiness is a Choice”, Dark
Clouds, Silver Lining”, “The 15 minute manage”, “Managing your emotions” and many other psychological-Christian
books and the list goes on and on. 1 Cor. 13:12 (KJV) For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now
I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. I Cor.13:12
When I look back I can honestly say most of the books in my library did not set me free, nor give me the truth to help me
be free. “They took me to the Woods, but did not tell me how to get out!” Just as so much other teaching has done.
It created a lot of confusion in me. The only book that I believe sets us free is God’s Word, “The Bible”.
Jeremiah 15:16 Thy words were found, and I did eat them; and thy word was unto me the joy and rejoicing of mine heart: for
I am called by thy name, O LORD God of hosts. Praise God for His Faithfulness, Grace and Mercy! Lament. 3:23 (KJV) They
are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
Trusting God is the key I have learned. “God tells you to go out on a limb. Once you get out to the very end of the
limb, you hear the sound of a chain saw. rrrh! rrrh! rrrh! Now you turn around and there he is…the devil holding the
chain saw, cutting right through the limb you are clinging to. Faith in God tells us to stay on the end of the limb at all
costs and (trusting in God’s character) watch Satan continue to saw until the whole tree falls over with him in it…and
you stay aloft on your limb! This is faith. It is NOT faith in the tree, nor faith in the limb. It is faith in the Word
of God and faith in the One who stands behind His Word…faith requires that you take action and do the possible and let
God do the impossible. With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26
Thank you listening and may God Bless you all! I love you sisters and brothers!
Penny V. Testimony for Disease Anonymous 3/26/2006