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Penny V. Testimony for Disease Anonymous


Happy is he that hath the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God: Psalm 146:5
I would like to pray: Father God, I cannot do this or anything alone, I ask for your help, guidance and favor in sharing my testimony that you would use it to heal the broken hearted and set the captives free! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen!

With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26

Thank you all for allowing me to share from my heart, my testimony and life experiences. I am still walking out as I continue to listen & learn from Papa God, His Word and Pastor Henry’s AWEW teaching.

I will be sharing from Gods Word and Pastor Henry’s teaching and how these truths have set me free. Free to live anywhere, breathe anything and have my being in God & fellowship with God, myself and others. “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

Please, consider what I am sharing as some of my understanding, on the consequences of my sin & those of my generations, the world and mankind. But, I want to clearly communicate my purpose for sharing is not intended to judge anyone. But, part of the first R’s….recognition. So, that I may learn to separate myself and others from there sins; to love myself and others as God sees and loves us unconditionally. My hearts desire is to help restore those who are held captive as I was. For God is no respecter of persons…!

I have been a Christian since around 12 years old and now am 53. I have been blessed as far as I can remember with a feeling of being loved and protected by God, but did not take it into my heart. I have come to realize I was searching for someone-anyone to love me unconditionally and accept me for myself. I did not feel really loved or accepted by anyone else. I was lost, was blind & could not see.

I have been healthy most of my life…was never a sick child or adult except for some bronchitis, ear infections & a tonsillectomy. I was raised by my father and grandmother (partially). My mom deserted me when I was a baby. My father was not a Christian. He was an alcoholic and sexually abused me. I believe this to be in the generations even before my father’s father. I have an older brother and sister who are mentally ill and with whom I have not been able to have fellowship with.

My grandmother, who was not always around, had the biggest influence on me as far as my exposure to a relationship with God. She took me and my sister and brother to church. I have some of the best memories of growing up in church. My grandmother loved God and it showed.
In those days there were many family secrets and we were not allowed to talk about them.
I remember one night very late, running over to my grandma’s house when my dad got drunk and was going to abuse me. She let me stay the night and did not let my dad take me, but she never turned him over to authorities, even after many abuses. I think this probably created a lot of confusion in me.

Before I got married I remember thinking that in order to get my husband I would need to quit church because he did not approve of holy-rollers. I was in rebellion and this was my decision and sin and I have since repented. I remember after being married that my husband would not allow me this freedom. But, I felt God pulling at my heart and I missed His fellowship, and felt such an emptiness and void; but I was afraid to pursue church with my husband being so opposed.

I have known that God has always been there, even when I tried in ways that were my own. Even in my sins as a Christian, He knew my heart. He was and is and has always been greater than my heart. “For if our hearts condemn us, God is greater than our hearts and knoweth all things. 1 John 3:20 (KJV) But, there are still consequences of sin.

I remember when I was around 30 years old, taking a Christian class for sexually abused women. I had blocked the abuse all those years and it started surfacing when my daughter started to be around the age I was abused. I would wake up afraid my husband would hurt her. This was not his issue but my fear. I then took these classes and what I realized was that I did not trust God. I saw him as my earthly father, harsh, condemning and someone who would take his love away from me if I was not perfect and that He was angry with me. God wanted a relationship with me.

Once I realized this and started to separate my earthly dad from Papa God, I started to have a better relationship with him but I still had many lessons to learn. To trust God completely is what I am still working on. I even hear Him say to me “Do you trust me, Penny?” I have been known to say yes, but my actions say no! I am still walking out of this. God cannot fail nor has He ever failed me! "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight."

Even when I was fighting for my children and my life he never did leave me and later I discovered it was really me who moved. Someone said to me along time ago, draw so close to Him that you can hear His heart beat. Clinging to Him!

Even with this new wisdom I still felt like I have had to fight for most everything that was good or right, in my life and have felt little covering from my earthly father (generational) or husband, most of my life. This is said out of understanding not judgment, so that my heart can be healed.
When our daughter was born, it was then that I realized that I would not raise her without knowing God and I then put my foot down with my husband. After this initial resistance, my husband has permitted me to teach them what I believe. They went to a Christian school, church, homeschooled but not without a battle.

Some of what I have learned and did not understand before, was that God intended for us women to have godly men over us, father or husband. When we are treasured, nurtured and loved, we blossom. When are crushed, we become broken-hearted and get sick. Proverbs 17:22 (KJV) A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones.
Even when we have not been treasured by people, God treasures us which His Word says over and over.

Pastor Henry says in “A More Excellent Way”:

“The salvation of the whole family should begin with the salvation of the father and husband of the home. God did not create woman to be the spiritual leader of the home; He created the man to be that. Ephesians’ 5:22-24 Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the savior of the body. Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husband in everything. “When women are not loved…when the male does not rule the home in love, the female has no choice but to take the reins. The minute she does, Satan’s entire kingdom comes to help her. She was never designed to rule the home; she was designed to follow a patriarch, a Godly one.”

This really helped me understand why I had felt like I had been fighting for myself all my life, because I had. But, I have come to realize over the years that I was in sin in asking an unspiritual man to do spiritual things. God has been (and will continue to be) my spiritual husband for 30 years now. I believe it is God’s will for my husband to be this but I will wait upon the Lord. This has been a process for me to trust God to take care of me and help my husband be who He called him to be from the foundations of the earth, not what I think he should be.

I have been blessed with a wonderful husband and I would not trade him for the world. But, cannot imagine how he has suffered and endured the trials with me and our children or even in his life. I respect & love him for sticking it out with me and the kids and continue to ask God to bless him and heal his broken heart from the pain of all the trials he has endured. He did all he could do, he did his best and that is all we can ask of anyone, including ourselves.

Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. Eph 4:32-- And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.

I would like to share the below experiences, as just a few examples of the hand of God and His faithfulness in my life. 1981-1989
1981-Grandmother died-She was the closest to a mother that I had growing up. She loved the Lord and served him.

1985-Father died- I saw Gods love, grace and mercy, through the way He allowed me to say goodbye to my dad and tell him I forgave him.

1987-After my father died my sister inherited, some money but did not want to be responsible for her daughter so she sent her to me. They were living out of cars and my sister was mentally ill. I received my niece who was around 10 years old, but after threats from my sister on stealing my children, my nieces’ safety and futile attempts at protecting her, we went to the authorities. Who took her and freed her and placed her in a loving home in 1990. She is now happily married and has 3 children.

1989-A female family member moved in and took over the mother and wife role in the family- I became invisible till one day, I said enough and stood up and said this was not working.

1989-Mother died. My uncle called me and said she had a massive brain aneurysm and was on life support. Upon arriving, the doctors were quick to ask me for permission to cease life support. I told them I had not seen her but once in my life and could not make that decision. I was asked to cease life support for her because of the massive brain aneurysm and because she was in a coma. My mother abandoned me and my older brother and sister when we were little and gave away my little brother. I remember going into her room and seeing her on the life support. I went over and whispered in her ear that”I loved her and forgave her”. I had not seen her but once in my adult life. God gave me her brother, my uncle, to help me and we decided to see how she was living. What we saw was that she had been severely mentally ill for a very long time, which was revealed by her living conditions. We could see she was tormented. I asked God to take this decision from me and when I arrived back at the hospital, she stabilized and went off life support. She was in a hospital for another week and died quietly in her sleep. God is so very good! I saw Gods hand in this in how He allowed me to forgive my mom and to say goodbye.

1991-Before our daughter got sick I was very active and driven. I was home schooling, assistant director of Home School classes at our church as well as teaching, field trips, Tae Kwon Doe, Piano lessons, sewing, etc. I came across some of my diary notes to God, and I mentioned more than once I was angry and noticed I took little time for myself. I was always taking care of someone or helping. As, I look back I was too busy, driven into perfectionism and performance for the approval of my husband, family and others. I can see that now.

I am not really clear how we all got sick but will try and place some life events and decisions that sent us in the direction we went or to the desert. I would also acknowledge the above mentioned events as having an impact on my heart. Both my children had chronic ear infections and were on antibiotics, a lot. My daughter had asthma and started to have stomach problems. My son had croup as a baby, also. I was never one for medicine being a nurse and all and would have done anything to not subject my kids to the drugs, which sent me into the alternative methods. My daughter’s conditions seemed to continue to worsen. One day one of my Christian friends recommended that she see an environmental MD. The kids were tested and we were told to avoid all the things that they were allergic to, which included about everything from air, food to environment. They also started to do some injections to help with the allergies. In the process of this she had an anaphylactic reaction to an exposure to touching a cat. This was my first experience with this sort of thing. Even as a nurse I had never seen anyone allergic to animal, food etc…just drugs.

This is how it all started and it was only the beginning…..! So, I altered about as much in their environment, food, water etc. as I could, to help them feel better; but this did not really work. She got worse. My son was sensitive to smells, but not really sick through this till he got older.
We continued to have problems with our daughter breathing and allergies. So, we removed furniture and carpet and laid plastic sheeting down, this was the last and final of many things we did to help her get well in this home. When I look back there was always some temporary relief, but with each change or submission it required more extreme measures, which created more fear.

Jeremiah 17:5-10
5.Thus saith the LORD; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the LORD.
6.For he shall be like the heath 2. heath, heath land -- (a tract of level wasteland; uncultivated land with sandy soil and scrubby vegetation)in the desert, and shall not see when good cometh; but shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness, in a salt land and not inhabited.
7. Blessed is the man that truseth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is.
8.For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.
9.The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?
10. I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.

1992-car accident-exhaust leaking into my car. Our doctor was able to determine this was the reason why we were all getting sicker. Our daughter already couldn’t go to church and then our son started to complain of smells and getting sick at church, so we had to stop.

June 1993-Ourdaughter was diagnosed with Crohns disease at 14 yrs old and during this year, she had an ovarian cyst that was drained, rectal fissure surgery, E-Coli exposure in the hospital and was in and out of the hospital because of Crohns lesions from her mouth to rectum where she could not eat or even drink water without pain or symptoms.
She came home in October with tube feedings and an I.V. I cared for her. I went back to the environmentalist MD because she was not getting better with the 100 mg steroids and massive doses of antibiotics.

She would ask me why she was so sick, I would say I did not know but that I knew God was faithful. The only teaching I seemed to understand was the example of Job, a Godly man who suffered for Christ. “I told her that God must have had something special for her to do to have suffered so much”. I now understand that Job was in fear of losing his children. I have since repented.

One morning the Lord spoke to me and told me he would heal her. This was October 30, 1993 and she was healed immediately of Crohns/abdominal pain and started to eat and drink.
But, even a few days later she was in the E.R. for diarrhea (? Flu). But, the total healing of her Crohns, abdominal pain, MCS EI did not seem to last. She continued to have symptoms but never went on any antibiotic or steroids for Crohns even to this day. God is faithful. Through all of this, even though she was diagnosed with Crohns, she never had any of her bowels removed, which is a miracle considering she had lesions from her mouth to rectum. She continued with severe debilitating abdominal pain and was diagnosed also with E.I. and Porphyria. (Porphyria is a group of different disorders caused by abnormalities in the chemical steps leading to the production of heme.)

Because she continued to get worse, we went to the mountains to a hotel in Snoqualmie Falls. She seemed better and this helped us consider our next move. The scripture God gave me was this. Psalms 46:10. Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen; I will be exalted in the earth. 11. The LORD of host is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.
What this experience did was confirm what I had read in the environmental books, that the mountain, desert or by the water helps some people. Fear and faith project into the future. They must be fulfilled. One is by God and the other one by Satan. So we proceeded to buy land in North Bend, Washington by a river.

These are part of the letters that were written from the Environmental MD and my husband to get the permitting process going quicker.
9/14/1994 King County Planning-Dear Sirs, Due to the circumstances explained in this letter, this is a request for expedited, hardship approval process for our home in North Bend. We have a highly allergic and chemical sensitive child and a new home seems to be the only direction that we can now go. This is to provide the environment she needs to stay healthy and not worsen her condition. We have come to this conclusion after exhaustive medical costs and consultations, a letter from my daughter’s doctor is attached, (Dr. name).
We are building this home under the consultation of a specialist in safe home construction. (name).
We have tried to take every consideration possible for a easy approval process: using a local civil engineer, having a boundary and topography survey done. While setting the building back 200 Ft. To ease concerns for any wetlands encroachment and leaving the remaining acreage as undisturbed as possible. We have acquired 5 acres only in hopes of eliminating the possibility of a neighbors use of wood stoves and pesticides etc.., further exacerbating this already difficult health issue. Respectfully, (my husband) Duvall, WA

This letter came from a large Environmental Medicine Clinic in Washington:
May 12, 1994
To whom it may concern, (our daughter & Son) are patients of mine who have widespread allergies. They both have inhalant allergies including molds, dust, mites, and pollens. In addition, they have multiple food intolerances. They have to avoid eating the foods they are sensitive to or the symptoms may be aggravated. In addition, both children, especially (our daughter), are quite sensitive to environmental chemicals. This would include having adverse reactions to substances such as carpet, fumes, auto exhaust, strong fragrances, cleaning agents, pesticides and similar compounds. Both the children have had to lead a restrictive lifestyle due to the nature of their sensitivities and allergies. Our daughter, in particular, has had a severe bout of what was originally thought to be Crohn’s disease as well as ovarian cysts and alopecia (hair loss). Her underlying diagnosis includes chronic Mucocutaneous Candidiasis with autoimmune polyendocrinopathy. Toni requires long term antifungal medication for this condition.
Due to the nature of their allergies and sensitivities, I have recommended strict environmental control at home. This includes air filters to reduce the level of allergens in the air. He goes on to tell us we need control her environment with water filters, special bedding, and all allergy control products that he believed would help there allergies. He finally says that both children will require long-term therapy including desensitization, environmental control and nutritional supplementation.
(Doctors name) M.D.

We had extreme trouble getting a permit and I am not clear but I think we took our daughter to this building site and she felt sick and this sent us on another wild goose chase. I would say even before this I was exausted and broken-hearted and was getting sicker by the day myself. I was driven to save my children lives or to give them some sort of life, because my daughter was still curled up in a ball on her bed with abdominal pain and was affected by her environment.

So in 1994 we moved from 11 years in our Woodinville house. We had done everything we were told to do to make this house Okay to stay in from ripping the carpet out, testing carpet, air, cleaning up mold etc. Everything!!!!

Then our environmental MD told us that he thought that our kids would be better in high desert and so we started to consider this.

Psalm 38:6 I am troubled; I am bowed down greatly; I go mourning all the day long.
June 1994-We moved to log house in Duval which again did not work, this house was leaky, and wood smoke would come in. My husband even put an air purifying system in. This had hardwood floors but still did not work.

In October, I rented a camper and drove by myself with the kids to Arizona high desert around Flagstaff. I will never forget after my daughter being curled up in a ball getting up and going outside and playing on a swing set with our son. The relief of symptoms is what drove us in every decision. I was exausted and not well at this time and had become more allergic. In the mean time…

11-1994 we then moved to Marrowstone Island on the water and continued to get sicker. This house was small and old and we thought the ocean air would be good, but again there was a mill and we got the stuff from it. Toni and I were both diagnosed with porhyria by our Environmental MD. The only thing this did was give us a little credibility with the friends and family that were left. Steven was still working so came home on the weekends. He had an apartment in Bellevue Washington.

I was really sick here and analyphactic (which I had never been before) a good part of the time. I went to a Chiropractic and chelation doctor, here and ended up in E.R. from an overdose of vitamins he had given me. My daughter and I were on Oxygen and I.V.’s. We were in the process of deciding to move to Snowflake Arizona and had contact with a group of E.I. that was welcoming us. At this point we had lost most of friends and family, although I Praise God for the ones that stuck it out with us to this day! Aside from them everyone else thought we were nuts. At this point we came to the conclusion that Washington was not for us.

I would say that I had been functioning up until this last place we moved. I had been caring for my children, pretty much on my own even when I was sick. My husband went to work and I had no relief. When I look back, I see that I had a broken heart from childhood; otherwise I would not have been in so much fear. I remember my dad telling me he was going to die, which I think was the open door for fear to come in and the abuse only added to it. Then with no mother, I had only my dad.

But, what happened here was I collapsed and my heart was broken again, from caring for my daughter all those years, I could not bear to see her suffer. But then it became even more broken when I felt abandoned my husband physically, mentally and emotionally. He left. He was there on the weekends but I could tell he was gone. I felt unloved, uncovered, isolated, and alone and abandoned. Abandonment was a big issue for me because of my childhood, but now I was debilitated and could not care for myself and I felt very isolated, alone and abandoned by the one person I believed loved me. I had always been into performance and perfectionism but I could not do this anymore. I needed help, to be loved even in my mess, unconditionally. At this point I fell into total agreement that I was not loved or worth loving.

The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. Psalm 34:18

Then there was God! I remember looking out onto the beach and there were many eagles that flew over and God spoke to me and He said Isaiah 40:31--But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint”. I told the kids that what God had said. The only thing that kept me going was knowing the God from my youth, that He was faithful and would never leave me or desert me or abandon me. Even when my father, mother everyone leaves, He will not, period, because this goes against His character, He was the only one who never changed in my life. There is nothing-nothing-nothing I could do to make God love me more.

3-95 Steve and I flew to Arizona to check it out. I had oxygen, was sensitive to EMF’s and had a w/c was very sick most of the time. I was absolute nightmare to travel with. My poor husband. At first we were going to move down to Arizona by ourselves but then when Stevens’s job closed he came with us. This was an answer to prayer. I could not have done this alone. He was given stock options and salary for a year, which the other officers never received when the company closed down. God provided for us abundantly.

Psalm 31:9-13 9. Have mercy upon me, O LORD, Be, gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in trouble; mine eye is consumed with grief, yea, my soul and my belly. 10. For my life is spent with grief, and my years with sighing; my strength failed because of mine iniquity, and my bones are consumed.

We arrived July 13th 1995 in Snowflake, Arizona. We were greeted by our neighborhood of E.I.’s who were loving and supportive of us. After being so isolated and rejected, these people accepted us just the way we were. They were such a comfort and blessing to us.
We built first our large shop and garage and turned it into a temporary home in August. I could not sleep in the special Airsteam that was E.I. safe supposedly, so we slept in the car and our neighbor’s house until shop was done.

1996 February-Home in Snowflake done. February we moved into the house. My husband and son built this with the neighbors and some builders. This was a very specially built house with some foil lined rooms, tile, special paints, insulation etc.

My husband built other houses in area but they were all different depending on the person’s allergies or E.I. needs. I would mention that working and being able to build a home for an EI is very difficult because of the extreme differences in sensitivities. At one point we were actually taken to court, when one of the persons refused to pay us saying the house was not liveable, (even though they lived in it). They did not win, but my husband was injured by this. We were committed to help people in our same situation but did not understand, at the time, what we were really up against.

Most E.I.’s in our community subscribed to a popular magazine, E.I. Home Companion in which there was a testimony from Darcy Renegal of her healing through Pastor Henry’s teaching. I think this is what spurred my neighbors to invite Pastor Henry to visit us.

Pastor Henry came to Snowflake Arizona, where my family and I lived in an E.I. home and community. The words that Pastor Henry spoke to me were, “Who broke your heart?” and “You have been lied to!” (“I say Duped!”) This truth pierced my heart and this was the beginning of my freedom from fear, stress, anxiety, loneliness, and healing of my broken heart and my relationship to Papa.

So on March 6th 1997, 9 years ago, (our Wedding Anniversary) God healed me of my broken heart and M.C.S.E.I. (allergies to food, clothing, environment, anaphylactic reactions, electromagnetic, etc.) completely.

How was I healed? Jeremiah 15:16--Thy words were found, and I did eat them; and thy word was unto me the joy and rejoicing of mine heart: for I am called by thy name, O LORD God of hosts. Jeremiah 17: 14. Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me and I shall be saved: for thou art my praise

Isaiah 53: 4 & 5 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

I want to also share that I have been healed of Porphyria, anorexia, bulimia, breast cysts, migraines, sciatica, herpes, high cholesterol, back & neck pain, hair loss, chronic cough and change of life. Plus, I also believe God’s healing in the generational diseases that He has prevented me from having in my family tree (diabetes, heart disease, insanity, alcoholism, addictions, breast cancer & Scleroderma.

I was in a prison cell. God set me free. I remember a particular sticky note that my kid had written on saying “Mom, this chair will not hurt you”. Just an indication of how far in fear I had gone. What I realized was that my heart had been broken and in that, the door to fear was opened, from childhood. What I feared came upon me. I was afraid of losing my children and my life and I did everything I could to save them. I was in sin because fear is sin. Fear leads to deception but faith leads to risk. As Pastor Henry says “What’s the worst thing that can happen to you, die and go to heaven?” Boy, does that take the bite out of death. Satan really used this on me, fear of death, man, future…etc. I had been duped by Satan, who had lied to me all my life, the father of lies.

I had given all my strength to fear. I have a little story I would like to share: Once there was this little boy who was afraid of this monster in the basement. His mom would often visit the basement and he was always afraid, when she didn’t come back right away. One day it seemed like an exceptionally long time for her to be gone. So with broom in hand, he headed for the basement ready to take on the monster, who he was sure had eaten his mom.
When he got down in the basement he saw it: a great big ugly Monster on top of the freezer. He was laughing and sneering at the little boy. The little boy said, “Where’s my mommy?” The Monster said, “Ha! HA!, I ate her!” “Oh! No!” said, the little boy. Then he suddenly became angry and started to hit the Monster, with his broom, saying “you give me back my mommy!
The Monster suddenly, became a little smaller. He hit him again and again until the Monster became very small. The Little Boy, suddenly said, “Well, you’re not so scary and big anymore! Why? Said the little boy?” And the Monster replied,” Well, you’re not afraid of me anymore!”
The little boy said,” There’s a boy named Jimmy who’s still afraid of monsters, why don’t you go down to his house.” And the Monster did! Soon after his mom walked into where he was standing. The little boy said, “Where have you been, Mom?” “I was just doing the laundry, honey!”

I got angry this time at the right thing…Satan. So, when those symptoms came I realized that it was Satan trying to trick me to believe that these things could actually harm me.
As I have come to understand when we are not loved properly as our Father intended, (which is bunches!) then Fear (all) comes in and Fear hath torment. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18 (KJV) I was certainly tormented. When I look back I tried to save my children’s and my life and when we do this because of fear of death or sickness, we lose our life and that is just what happened. We ended up in the desert in sin with Fear. Sorta like Job!

When God healed my heart with His unconditional love, then my body started to respond and I went back to work and started to take my life back. My children followed! Praise God!

August 15, 1998--5 months later, Pastor Henry, prayed for complete deliverance of fear of man, stress, anxiety, loneliness, protection, guarding my heart from evil. That other people’s diseases and problems would not touch me.

Most of our neighbors were saying I/we were not really sick. That we were better because of the environmental changes, but as you can see in my bible notes after we were there for 3 months. On 10-10-1995, I had written “Father, I am struggling with my daughters, reacting to all foods, allergic reactions don’t know what to do or feed her. I love you, Lord! Have mercy and help us. Penny”

On October 16 we placed an add to sell our E.I. Home. We sold this house in the middle of the desert for cash. There was one miracle after another. We left the desert within a year of healing. I believe that in order to do my walk-out we needed to move on with our lives and take back what Satan had stolen; but that we needed to leave the desert. Some have said to me that God sent me to the desert like, Moses. I say, no, I do not agree when I said in my heart these things were greater than God. I bought it into my life. It had every right to my life. James 1:13 God does not tempt us, Satan tempts us in our weaknesses. I remember getting really angry when my children and I were sick and then realizing it was not God’s fault. That Satan had tricked me into thinking it was God that had allowed (caused it to happen). This was how I was taught by the churches. When we say God allowed, we are saying He is capable of sinning or tempting us and He does not do this. Our real enemy is Satan, he is the accuser of the brethren and accuses us to God day and night and God to us. Satan is the liar and father of lies. According to Pastor Henry’s teaching, when we are in temptation we are in the wilderness. It was fear that sent me to the desert and fear is not of God. But, I do believe that God was truly with me and had grace and mercy on us in the mist of my sin and disobedience. I/We did not look back to the apostasy but looked forward to the land of promise and the restoration of the years the locust had eaten.

“How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.”

After our healing our family moved to Montana where we bought a restaurant. This is really where my walk out has been. God has been faithful to meet me right where I was. I was still in fear when I got here but made one step at a time. As Pastor Henry says “one step forward, two back is still forward motion.” When they talk about it being walk-out, this is true. We are walking out of taking back what Satan has stolen from us and for some, it can be everything.

After being here for 2 years our son at 18 was diagnosed with Crohns disease and was placed on strong medicine. I looked again at AMEW and looked up the roots and saw generational yukkies. But, the one that popped for me was the unloving; I knew this was on both sides of our family.
In November our son was in ICU with a heart attack at 20 years old. He had been exposed to a Coccyx B virus that had attacked the lining of his heart.

I wrote an e-mail requesting prayer on 12/7/01
Dear Family & Friends, God is faithful! I would ask you all to be praying for Lil Steven. He has had a MI or heart attack as a side effect from the drugs he was taking for Crohn’s Disease, we believe. (It was determined, after lab tests were done that the coccyx B virus had caused this heart attack.) He has been diagnosed with Myocarditis and is in ICU. He was having chest pain for a couple days and was admitted yesterday. The good news is that these cardiac enzymes started this morning going down to 20 and they need to be at 0. They were at 67, so this is good. He will be closely monitored until he gets well. I would covet your prayer for lil Steven and us. May God Bless you in your own lives. Thank you! Love Always! :) Penny

On 12/01/01 He was healed of an MI Praise God!
So, on March 13-2002 So, for the first time, I decided that I needed to go to Pleasant Valley. My purpose was to learn about the unloving and deal with it in my generations and take responsibility. We now had two children that had this disease in the past. My life was changed forever as there were still so many things I did not know or understand. One more layer came off.

Psalm 34:1-4 I WILL bless the LORD at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make her boast in the LORD: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad.
O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together. I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.

My son also went to PVC during this year, he was still having symptom of Crohn but God met him there.

September 9 2003, The International Heart Institute. Doctor wrote.
To Whom It May Concern: (Our sons name), has been under my care since April of 2003. At that time, he was seen on a two year follow up for myocarditis. He has completer resolutions of all of his symptoms, both subjective and objective, and he has an absolutely normal echocardiogram performed on April 10, 2003.
At this time, he has had complete and total recovery from his episode of myocarditis and has no ongoing heart or blood vessel disease at this time. Respectfully submitted, Doctors name DO, FACOI, FACC, FSCAI

Our Son has a perfect Heart! The doctor gave him this report! You healed him! Praise you God.
On September 6-2005 his Gastroenterologist Doctor said his tests were normal for Crohns.
The Doctors letter on 9/06/05, recording his Coho lab test, was document as being normal. When I asked him what I could say to you, “He said, I should tell you, he is still walking out.”

Before God sent Pastor Henry to me and my family in the desert, if you would’ve asked me about my relationship to God, I would’ve told you, “I love the Lord with all my heart soul and mind.” But…I would not have been able to finish the sentence… I did not love myself; but what I did do was try and love others more than myself. How could I have loved my neighbor or anyone?
Jeremiah 9:23-24 Thus saith the LORD, Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, neither let the mighty man glory in his might, let not the rich man glory in his riches; 24 But let him that glorieth glory in this, that he undertandeth and knoweth me, that I am the LORD which exercise lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth: for in these things I delight, saith the LORD. I thought I knew God and who He was.

I would like you to know that even though we were supposed to be in a safe place in Arizona and had done everything physical to make this possible, we continued to have problems there. While living there, I continued searching for the answer through all types of alternative medicine, chiropractic, vitamin therapy, I.V.’s, oxygen, homeopathy, dentistry, diets, and on and on. I would guess we have spent over $500,000 or more on these treatments, etc. During this time I had prided myself in the knowledge of this disease, and alternative methods of treatments, which I have sense repented for. Fortunately, God saved us from going and doing some of the treatments that are offered at the major Environmental Clinics.

I just went to my bookshelf this morning seeing some of what I used to read. Looking at them with new eyes, I have included some of the titles to help you understand what I am sharing with you and how I was truly searching and lost. There are over 400 books, but here are only some titles, “Co-dependency No-More”, “Boundaries”, “Keep your dream alive”, “Beauty for Ashes”, “Laugh Again”, “Victory over darkness”, “ The Bible Cure”, “Beyond Fear”, “The Anger Workbook” “Happiness is a Choice”, Dark Clouds, Silver Lining”, “The 15 minute manage”, “Managing your emotions” and many other psychological-Christian books and the list goes on and on. 1 Cor. 13:12 (KJV) For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. I Cor.13:12

When I look back I can honestly say most of the books in my library did not set me free, nor give me the truth to help me be free. “They took me to the Woods, but did not tell me how to get out!” Just as so much other teaching has done. It created a lot of confusion in me. The only book that I believe sets us free is God’s Word, “The Bible”. Jeremiah 15:16 Thy words were found, and I did eat them; and thy word was unto me the joy and rejoicing of mine heart: for I am called by thy name, O LORD God of hosts. Praise God for His Faithfulness, Grace and Mercy! Lament. 3:23 (KJV) They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

Trusting God is the key I have learned. “God tells you to go out on a limb. Once you get out to the very end of the limb, you hear the sound of a chain saw. rrrh! rrrh! rrrh! Now you turn around and there he is…the devil holding the chain saw, cutting right through the limb you are clinging to. Faith in God tells us to stay on the end of the limb at all costs and (trusting in God’s character) watch Satan continue to saw until the whole tree falls over with him in it…and you stay aloft on your limb! This is faith. It is NOT faith in the tree, nor faith in the limb. It is faith in the Word of God and faith in the One who stands behind His Word…faith requires that you take action and do the possible and let God do the impossible. With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26


Thank you listening and may God Bless you all! I love you sisters and brothers!


Penny V. Testimony for Disease Anonymous 3/26/2006




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